Please help... I'm losing my grip on life?

I really am sorry and I feel your pain. Without knowing more about your location, suggesting resources would be futile, so instead I would advise you to go to SSA.org and click on the links there for your state and they always have free help under mental health and they can set you up with free therapy and counsel ling as well as drugs, if needed. Don't lose hope and just hang in there, I have been there and I know how you feel, but it gets better, I promise.